formulae: hop + e

/ Thursday, December 17, 2009

Life is a cycle...my life is undergoing a turning point when u woke me up in a middle of the night, i thought u were playing a fool with me...However, it wasn't. Why will u turn into this state overnight??? You were perfectly fine the previous days.... I can't believe this will befall on you, i thought it will only happen to others, not you. You were there still happily smiling towards me, when i was there forcing myself to accept the fact that u have aged. You brought me a lot of convenience and happiness these years. However, that night u woke me up from my beautiful dreams, I sensed the signal given to me that u are going to leave me soon. I can't make myself to fall asleep, I was worried that the next day i open my eyes , u will be there lying on the bed, having no response to our calls and shouts...That was when i sensed the importance of u in our family, handling all the household chores yourself. My feelings have stirred up when we noticed that u dun even know what is shooting out of ur mouth, unabling to take care of urself anymore... It was tiring going back and fro the hospital everyday witnessing ur condition getting worse day by day...
You have made us learn to become independent, being unable to rely on you anymore. You have aslo created a lot of 'first time' to me...It was the first time I was so helpless, I was trying to let you stand upright, I know i can't put you down but my muscle strained so hard that I had to put you down onto the wet, slippery floor... That was when i felt that i was so small, i was being there for no good use... It was so tedious to bathe for you..Why have u become an adult baby??? HANG ON... i dunno what will i face in the future without ur presence in my life...

/Hopped!
8:07 PM

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